When I graduated from high school and chose not to go to college, my parents clearly understood why.  I educated myself, being first drawn to books about Wicca and magic, then to self-help books and channeled material.  This was the awareness I had needed all along!  It gave me hope, and I knew all was well.

Even when I was alone in my room or home, I always felt that I was being watched - that every move and every moment was being judged and recorded on some tablet.  So just "being," alone in the woods was nice.  This was one of the best techniques to balance and integrate all I felt, and help me find myself when I felt lost about who I was.

Another part of being an Indigo was feeling an incredible amount of anger and rage while growing up, because whenever I expressed how I felt, nobody could understand.  This built up until finally I just stopped expressing myself.  I felt I was on a different frequency and ready to explode from it.  I would throw a chair, lash out and curse at someone, or just drink my anger away.

You see, I was "expanding," and since I was straying from the norm, I was given a pill to try to contain that.  But I was in expansion and could never be controlled or contained.  I was, and still am, constantly in expansion.  That's what it feels like to be an Indigo.